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Kailasa's Regret

“Listen, human-
 
Eternal life as a mountain has not come without a curse. I was once bright and full of life. I spent my days laughing with Meru at the North, helping the villagers by protecting them and providing for them so that I could sit back and enjoy watching them climb me to their temples and pray. Their pleasant prayers lifted my spirit and I rejoiced in their company.
 
In those days, Viswamitra used to be king. He once visited my temples and Indra thought the time was right to prove Viswamitra a mere man, tempting him to succumb to mortal desires. He sent Rambha, this Apsara of infinite beauty and nurture, to tempt him. This divine maiden of heaven was perfect and Viswamitra wouldn't refuse her advances, or so Indra thought.

 
I saw Indra’s intentions, so I protected Rambha. I sent Jatayu, the Vulture King, to let her know I would look after her. In her evening meditation, I spoke to her in spirit, telling her that she did not have to follow Indra’s orders. She was infinitely grateful, but she was still afraid to defy a god. I sent the villagers to look after her and provide for her. In the village, she met Viswamitra, who knew of Indra’s plan as soon as he saw her. 
 
He was about to turn her into stone when I blocked his curse and he became livid. Without saying a word, we both knew his stay here was over and soon enough he left. Embarrassed and scared, Ramha ran into the forest, where she encountered a hunter. Mistaking her light feet treading on leaves and soil, the hunter blindly shot his arrow in her direction. He would have hurt her had she not bent down to drink water and wash her face. Nalakubara, Vaishravana’s son, came running through the trees with a smile of victory on his lips. Upon looking at the scene, his face turned from victory to confusion to admiration. Rambha’s skin glowed with the moonlight, smooth. Her hair flowed like the water in the river before her.
 
Nalakubara bowed and showered Rambha with apologies, offering his carriage to her to take her back to her home. She accepted and he took her back to my feet, for she did not want the villagers to know. As an Apsara, she cannot marry, so her love had to be kept a secret.
 
They kept their visits secret, with me as their confidant and helper. I would keep an eye out for them and change the path of anyone who headed in their direction. Once Nalakubara walked Ramha back to the cave where she lived, he would head back to his father’s castle.
 
And so this arrangement worked wonderfully, but this bliss would be short-lived. One day, I heard a racket and the raspy laughs of ten demon heads and surely, Ravana was making his nightly rounds in search of women. The Rakshasa King decided he wanted any woman he would lay his eyes on, scaring the villagers whenever he flew by on his Pushpaka, but his flights were rare- for this was not one of the Rakshasa paths, so far away from Lanka. That night, Rambha had decided to sit outside her cave, in a good mood, to enjoy the moon’s rays.
 

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It was too late for me to warn her of the danger. Ravana had caught the reflection of the moonrays off her skin and he swept down and attacked her. Rambha tried to fight him off, but the dagger that Nalakubara had made for her was inside the cave, out of her reach. I could hear her cries and Ravana’s gloating. I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t protect her. I sent vultures and snakes after him, but the animals feared the demon. I sent the rivers and lakes to drown him, but they also shivered with fear. I shook and kept shaking until everything was destroyed. Ravana, realizing I was there, angry, looked at me and smiled. Rambha took this chance to reach for a rock and smashed one of Ravana’s faces. Stunned, his slow reaction allowed Rambha to beat him again. Ravana started cursing her when she interrupted him by hitting him again. She took his bow and threw it out of his reach, grabbing his sword with her other hand and cutting off his heads.
 
"Well done, but run, my child! I am sending for help, but he will be after you. Do not stop!" I told her, while calling all the spirits to come to her aid. Nalakubara heard the cry for help from one of the birds in the forest and immediately turned his chariot around. His heart pounding, he rushed back to Rambha, each step faster than the previous, until he was almost flying, his feet barely touching the grass.
 

 

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As soon as they saw each other, Nalakubara embraced her, holding her cold, shaking body as she cried.
 
"Ravana will pay," he said. He cursed Ravana so that he cannot take a woman without her consent, but the damage was done. Even as Ravana heard the curse, Rambha’s spirit was broken.
 
The shame should only lie with me. I could have saved her. I could have done more. I could have hit Ravana’s Pushpaka before he reached me… I failed Rambha. She was like a daughter to me and I did not protect her.”
 
The hermit sat quietly with the mountain, both crying silently in the night while facing the moon. The cold wind from that night did not come from Lord Vayu; it came from inside the mountain and inside the hermit’s heart.

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Author's Note: Kailasa starts developing admiration and interest in the hermit that has taken up residence in the mountain. The hermit gives Kailasa hope and takes his mind away from the torturous thoughts that haunt Kailasa. Soon enough, Kailasa shares his experience with the hermit, who learns why Kailasa is so desolate. This will bind them forever as friends. It is their shared pain that establishes the friendship.
 
Using Kailasa as the main character, I thought that highlighting a story that happened on Mount Kailasa and his reactions and response would be a good way to show him as a sentient being. Kailasa is tortured and haunted by what happened to Rambha.  Rambha’s story, as told by Buck in his version of the Ramayana, is told from Indra’s perspective. I changed the story slightly in order to incorporate Kailasa as a character instead of just as a setting, centering all of the action there. The major changes I made include: instead of Viswamithra turning Rambha into stone and Vaishravana later taking the statue to his castle, Kailasa prevents Viswamithra from doing so and Rambha does not go to Vaishravana’s castle. In order to still have Rambha meet Nalakubara, I made them meet at the forest at Kailasa’s feet after Kailasa intervenes in Viswamithra’s curse.
 
For those of you who are wondering, 1 yojana = 16 km or 10 miles, ahoratra = 1 day, masa=1 month, rutus = season, 2 months, 2 months, ayanas = 6 months, samvatsaras = 360 days. I thought it would make more sense to use ancient India’s units. Source: Wikipedia: Hindu Units of Time
 
Sources for story:
 
Buck, William (1976). Ramayana: King Rama's Way.

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